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they want you to grow cold
they want you to stay lonely
they want you to be like themselves
not liking any imagination or phantasy
they want to keep distance
they want to have a serious face
they would like cold smiles and
sarcastic jokes
to hurt you not knowing who you are really
they want to generalize 
they want to numerize
they really want to achieve
and you are a weird creature for them
cold cold people
with cold cold hearts
they want you to grow cold
they want you to grow old
they want you to be sad
they enjoy from the sufferings
and yet they are the best criticizers
of what you have not adapted to
they want you to change and become like a tree in winter
rather than green and warm and shining
lonley and freezing
they freeze your blood
they stimulate your thoughts
they want you to be lonely and get used to silence
book clubs
feminism
solidarity
friends
beer going out
cheap talk
good laughs
you miss them terribly
and you miss the wine too
then you miss your friends
who really ask and mean when they say
how are you?
they want to sell you something
they do not want to buy anything
they want an exchange unfair
or they want nothing at all from you
the worst case is this
when they really want nothing at all from you
and you give them your grudge
they really do not know
they want you to smile less
and laugh with a silent tone
but do not change for what they want
cause you will never be one of them
you are from the south and the south despite all fallacies
waits someone with open arms, with open eyes and ears
south knows how to appreciate warmth
south knows how to talk
south knows how to laugh
and yet knows how to be human.

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