Red Wedding Gown

we slept through the church bells   and i thought of ezan we woke up late he prepared breakfast the coffee was with milk although I prefer Americano recently i wanted to work and ironed instead the cat wanted to play so did we and we walked to the old books’ bazaar bought a book on Etruschi convinced that they were Turkish at some point  a book of Tanpinar I did not read the preface which called Kemalism soulless cause I did not like the idea and so I started reading directly the book i bought as a present and am using it myself   my cat came to the room he looked around he looks like a lion, hamster, rabbit and bear at the same time sometimes i hold him like a baby a baby that i never had   then i cry  thinking all the babies i could have and my mediocre articles written in english i had a mediocre life for sure and the only thing i rely on is my watercolour tutorials hence, i think from time to time I should have been cleverer and stronger never possible ever but always there is colo